the trees

pay attention to the trees 

they whisper in the wind 

i must pause and be silent 

so the trees feel safe 

they want to share 

their song with me 

before they die 

they sing of the time 

when the rain left 

only their tears 

kept them alive 

i come now and 

build an altar 

to honor their passing

At Lakeview Methodist Conference Center near Palestine, Texas.  We experienced a severe drought last year which caused the trees to suffer terribly. As a result the Conference Center has begun clearing the forest of dead and dying trees.  They say this will be good for the trees in the forest ... the circle of life, I wonder?  

Mary Oliver writes, "Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?"  Perhaps, but it is still painful ...

A Psalm of Lament

This week in our Psalm study we are looking at Psalm 80, which is a psalm of lament.  We are trying this form of prayer as an exercise to understand how to express our deeper, darker emotions especially in times when the theology contained in our minds falls short ... Where are you, O God of my heart?   Here is a current adaptation of a lament I wrote in the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina several years ago:

A PSALM OF LAMENT

1.    Call  

Oh Lord, my God and my Strength

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    
2.    Description of trouble

What is wrong with me, that you hide your presence?
And refuse to sit with me in my closet of shame
I’m lost and afraid of the darkness that surrounds me
I run aimlessly as my soul longs for you
I am desperate for you as I search and do not hear your voice
I find only empty promises and bitter blows
My heart falters under the strain
How I must disappoint you, my God and my King

3.    Plea for God to respond

Come to me in the time of my despair
Crush my spirit under the strain of my suffering
Satisfy your holiness with the cleansing of my heart
Have mercy upon me, my God and my Redeemer

4.    Statement of trust that God is listening

I will fear no longer for I trust in your everlasting presence
You listen yet choose not to respond for the sake of my soul
Your discipline will somehow save me from this material world
As you form me in an image fit for heaven, my God and my Creator

5.    Vow or expression of praise

All the days of my life I will seek your face
I will wrestle with you until you answer me
And I will praise your most holy name, my God and my Love 

Amen.

© 2006 Cindy Serio