Tuesday, December 21, 2010

The Light Shines!

The Light shines in the darkness and the darkness did not overcome it.  (John 1:5)

Longing for Light, we wait in darkness.
Longing for Truth, we turn to you.
Make us your own, your holy people.
Light for the world to see.
Christ, be our Light!
Shine in our hearts.
Shine through the darkness.
Christ be our Light!


Written by Bernadette Farrell, British Catholic Hymn writer 
Follow this link for a creative YouTube montage of Christ be our Light


Friday, December 10, 2010

Visionary Women "Suffering Artist" Day

Once again Julia Cameron, in Vein of Gold, has taken our Visionary Women to a different location, literally!  In her chapter "Basic Black" Cameron encouraged us not to take ourselves so seriously and to have creative fun with some "attitude."  As you can see from the picture, some of us have more attitude than the others.  While Cameron did suggest that we dress all in black and go out, in public no less, with the persona of the suffering artist ... she didn't say we'd look like we were getting ready to rob the Museum of Art (we are artists after all, what else would we rob, a bank???) and that made us laugh and laugh and laugh!   When I cut across the parking lot on the way to lunch, I had to admit that I was volunteering to drive the getaway car.  

  One of our talented artist friend made T-shirts for us with a message for all of our well-meaning friends and strangers who have taken on the job of helping us transform ourselves:  "What other people think of me is none of my business"  We did have a lot of fun ... maybe next time you can join us! 

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Celebrating Life on WORLD AIDS DAY

Once upon a time long long years ago I had a friend.   I was young.  He was young.  We were all young!  It was the 70's and life was wild and crazy and fun because we were so young!  My friend was quite simply, beautiful.  His beauty began in his heart and love poured out into the world every time he smiled.  He was an amazing artist and an imaginative theatrical performer.  O how I secretly loved that little twinkle in his eyes when he began to work his magic and talk me into something. 

My friend loved the Phantom of the Opera.   One day a group of us were hanging out.  Suddenly (it seems) standing before us was an old, large abandoned house.  My friend's imagination took off.  Yes, he persuaded us to find a way to sneak into that house with the signs that said, "Condemned.  Stay Out!"   Although the details are lost in the deep recesses of my mind, I believe the house was two or three stories high.  I know there was an attic with many secret spaces.  This old house had a lovely rounded wooden staircase. 
As I've written my story today, I remember being drawn to this picture I found in a magazine.  I spent time with it and I interpreted it ... it looks much like the staircase in the old house.  I've used it before and shared the poetry I wrote as I meditated with it.  Take this link to read the poetry:  Secrets of the Spiral Staircase
The massive staircase took center stage around which a collection of sparsely furnished rooms revolved around and around, connecting like a monstrous maze, delightful and deceiving!   Darkness prevailed in the old house because the windows were boarded up.  The sunshine sent fingers of precious light streaming through the cracks inviting the shadows to dance and come alive to scare us out of our wits at just the right moments.  My friend told us about the Phantom as he invited us to re-create the story with him.  Of course, he was always the Phantom.  And I was sometimes Christine.  As the Phantom, my friend came alive in that house so shrouded in darkness.  I saw the real young man emerge in the tortured dialogue of the Phantom.   I saw him come alive in ways that he could not as we walked in a world so blinded by artificial light that it rips your persona into pieces if you dare to be different.  I think perhaps in that old house and in the Phantom's skin, my friend felt safe enough to allow all of his emotions pour forth.  As he personified the soulful Phantom, he grew into an authentic person ...   

In the 70's people didn't talk about being gay.   He never told me.  It was always here, like that proverbial pink elephant, but we never talked about it.  I wonder if he wanted to talk about it.  I wonder if he thought my friendship and love for him would disappear if he told me who he really was.   One day my friend left our little town.  He said he just needed to "find" himself.  He became an artist in New York, and I hear he did really well, but we lost touch ... I wasn't there because I had gone off to "find" my own self.   I guess we all have to do that sometimes.  A few (way too few) years later, my friend finally came home ... to die.   

AIDS is an ugly killer.  AIDS runs rampant throughout the world.  More than 33 million men, women, and children have died from AIDS.  Women and children are especially vulnerable victims due to gender and age related issues.   What can we do about this global crisis?  We can work together.  United Methodists are stepping up to provide a tangible response to the HIV/AIDS crisis through the United Methodist Global AIDS Fund. This fund represents the commitment of every United Methodist to put a stop to HIV/AIDS in our world.  In honor of my daughter's 22nd birthday today and in memory of my friend, I have already made a donation.  If you or someone you know has been touched by the AIDS crisis in the world, and if you feel called to do so, you can take this link and give to the UM Global AIDS Fund, UMCOR Advance #982345

Today I celebrate the life of my own Angel of Music!    
whose life changed my life.  
I am more tolerant.  
I am more understanding.  
I am more loving.   
I am more generous.   
Praise God from whom all Blessings flow!
AMEN

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Connections. We are all connected, connected to one other.

Once upon a time when I was very young (in the 1970's) I read a book called Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee and the story of Black Elk touched my heart so much that I read his book, Black Elk Speaks.   These books had a formative impact on me as my eyes were opened and my heart felt his pain.

As I was preparing to lead morning worship in the Piney Woods of central Louisiana, I walked out onto the Pavilion overlooking the lake nestled among the pine trees.  In an instant I was transported in my mind back to my childhood ... laying under the pine trees of Southern Arkansas, reading about Black Elk ... tears streaming down my face.

Native American religion is “a thing of the heart."  Prayers are said with the heart and are carried upon the wind ... thoughts for the heart, the soul and the mind ... Prayers that call upon us to remember who we are, where we come from and where we are going ... as we journey down the pathway of life.

It reminds me of what I have been taught about the Hebrew meaning of heart as the "center of one's being."  And what about that old saying, "Home is where the heart is." 

Connections.  We are all connected, connected to one other. 

It reminds me of the Ubuntu Theology of the great South African Episcopal Bishop, Desmond Tutu.  Ubuntu as I understand it, means … "I am what I am because of what we all are together."   Somewhere deep in my soul I know that if even one person in the world is suffering, I am suffering ... even if I don't know it. 

Connections.  We are all connected, connected to one other.  

It reminds me of the words of the great writer and follower of Christ, Paul who said in 1 Corinthians 12:12-13For just as the body is one and has many members, and all the members of the body, though many, are one body, so it is with Christ. For in the one Spirit we were all baptized into one body—Jews or Greeks, slaves or free—and we were all made to drink of one Spirit … One Spirit


Connections.  We are all connected, connected to one other.

I invite you to open your heart and pray this prayer by Chief Seattle in the Native American tradition.  It is called the Prayer to the Four Directions ... adapted with inclusive language:

Great Spirit of Light, come to me out of the East with the power of the rising sun. Let there be light in my words, let there be light on my path that I walk. Let me remember always that you give the gift of a new day. And never let me be burdened with sorrow by not starting over again.

Great Spirit of Love,
come to me with the power of the North. Make me courageous when the cold wind falls upon me. Give me strength and endurance for everything that is harsh, everything that hurts, everything that makes me squint. Let me move through life ready to take what comes from the north.

Great Life-Giving Spirit,
I face the West, the direction of sundown. Let me remember everyday that the moment will come when my sun will go down. Never let me forget that I must fade into you. Give me a beautiful color, give me a great sky for setting, so that when it is my time to meet you, I can come with glory.

Great Spirit of Creation,
send me the warm and soothing winds from the South. Comfort me and caress me when I am tired and cold. Unfold me like the gentle breezes that unfold the leaves on the trees. As you give to all the earth your warm, moving wind, give to me, so that I may grow close to you in warmth. Humanity did not create the web of life, each one but a strand in it. Whatever one does to the web, one does to the self.   Amen.


And Amen and Amen ...

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Spider! Spider!

Spider! Spider!
Spinning your Web
Spinning Spinning
Intricate Patterns
Delicate Gossamer
Gilded Edges
Shining in the Evening Sky
A Sunset Backdrop
A Lonely Job
For a Solitary Spider
Longing for Others
To journey with
On the Sinister Pathway 
of those Silky Strands 
Spider! Spider!

Morning Glories and Mom

My Mom loved flowers ... when I was a little girl, I remember the myriad of Marigolds she planted.  I remember them because of their strong smell.  I didn't like to smell them but they were very hardy my Mom told me.  I did love to smell the ruby red roses that grew at the edge of the house and how they made the most beautiful bouquets.  I remember how we pinned them to our dresses, she and I, on Mother's Day.   

I remember the fascinating Four O' Clocks because they knew what time to open their delicate purple petals to the afternoon sun.  They were always on time!  I remember the beautiful blue Morning Glories climbing and winding up and up the trellis by the gently sloping porch at the side of our house on dead man's curve ... yes, they really did call it that although no one died while I lived there.  Those Morning Glories ... they were quite simply ... glorious!  As I walked among the flowers at the Inn Above Onion Creek ... this week on retreat ... suddenly I saw beautiful blue Morning Glories and I remembered Mom ... again.  She would have loved them!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Remembering Mom on her Birthday ...

Three years ago we were celebrating Mom's 80th Birthday.  I think we knew it would be her last ... I think she enjoyed it.   Perhaps what I know the most about my mom is that she was the very best "Grandma" ever.  And as I sit holding my brand new grandson, I know I'll never be the Grandma she was ... I'll simply be that Grandma that I am ... singing made up songs and reading books to a three week old.  I wonder if my mom ... 
Well, there we are, mom and me.  This is the way I like to remember Mom ... young and beautiful.  And holding a baby.  My mom, she loved babies ... children and family were her passion.  I guess there wasn't much she wouldn't do for us.  I probably didn't appreciate her the way she deserved to be appreciated.  But in my own way, I loved her.  And so today, I shed a few tears and I take a deep breath and I look into the eyes of my own grandson and I love with the love that she loved with ...  Thanks Mom for loving me in the only way you knew how to love.    

Have you ever sat and pondered love?  Whose love is it that permeated your being and made you who you are?  Whose love personifies God's love for you?   

In The Naked Now, Richard Rohr writes, "If you have never experienced human love, it will be very hard for you to access God as Love.  If you have never let God love you, you will not know how to love humanly in the deepest way."   (page 140)

In Romans 8:39 Paul writes, "No power in the sky above or in the earth below--indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord."  

Thanks God for loving me so that I might learn to love more deeply every day ...  

Monday, September 13, 2010

New Life!

Easton Matthew Serio
Precious little Easton Matthew, May the music of the psalms
resonate in your soul forever as you bask in God's love for you
 
O Lord, you ...know everything about me ...
You go before me and follow me.
      You place your hand of blessing on my head ...
                                                  your hand will guide me                                                 
      and your strength will support me.
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
      and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
      Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
      as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
 You saw me before I was born.
      Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
 Every moment was laid out
      before a single day had passed.
 How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.
      They cannot be numbered!
 I can’t even count them;
      they outnumber the grains of sand!
 And when I wake up, you are still with me!  Amen

Grandma Cindy praying excerpts from Psalm 139

Monday, September 6, 2010

Cat on a hot ... asphalt roof!

Just saw the cutest thing ... Moley the Cat sitting on the roof ... MEOW! MEOW! MEOW!
 

Then again ... perhaps it's a weird alien cat from outer space that just landed on the roof ...
Can you see those blue/green shining eyes ...
Then again ... maybe it's an artifact ... warehouse 13 call me!
Then again ... maybe I've been watching too much TV ... ya think?

Monday, August 30, 2010

A Candlelight Labyrinth Walk

One of the most beautiful memories I have is walking the Labyrinth at Chartres Cathedral in the Candlelight.  Perhaps one day I'll write about it ...

but for now ... let me tell you about the candlelight labyrinth walk I offered this past weekend to a group of spiritual seekers steeped in the sounds of sheer silence.  The photos do not do this labyrinth vision of light justice ...

While it wasn't the cathedral, the dance of over 100 candles gently invited our pilgrims onto holy ground ... as the last person rounded the first corner, I felt the familiar tug on my heart to join the community in this walk ... dearest God, here I am, yes!
two steps forward and one step back ...
o how like the journey of life!  

Two steps forward moving in rhythm o so slowly ... 
one step back, two steps forward, one step back ... 

I surrender into a meditation of "release"  
and there it is, the great expanse
 
two steps forward nothing ...  nothing ...  
                                                      one step back nothing ... 
                                                       a great expanse of space in the nothing-ness as 
I reach the rose "window" center ... 
the center of God ... the center of my soul ... 
and I am at home ... within myself.  


I "receive" ... clarity,
love and strength for the journey 


 
 
And I "return" 
with each dancing step of the pilgrim
I am filled with the Love of God!
Amen!